Delta has Night terrors. He's got PTSD, he screams himself awake at night sometimes. Theta does too. CHurch doesn't because he can't remember so he's pretty fucking lucky.
I understand that he did that. I understand that for all that what we were supposed to be working for? We didn't do a fucking thing in the long term when it came to actually fighting in the war. Maybe we would have kept on wherever we'd been picked up from and died anyway. Maybe not. But it wouldn't have happened like this. I understand his INTENTIONS and I also understand that intentions are bullshit when you're committing war crimes for a program that didn't. Fucking. WORK.
It failed. Not because of us, but because it was always going to fucking fail. I understand that. I understand that Carolina can't look at her dad half the time because of what he'd done. I understand that the family I chose was gaslit and abused and used as social experiments for shits, giggles, and the flimsiest excuse for science I've ever heard of.
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I understand that he did that. I understand that for all that what we were supposed to be working for? We didn't do a fucking thing in the long term when it came to actually fighting in the war. Maybe we would have kept on wherever we'd been picked up from and died anyway. Maybe not. But it wouldn't have happened like this. I understand his INTENTIONS and I also understand that intentions are bullshit when you're committing war crimes for a program that didn't. Fucking. WORK.
It failed. Not because of us, but because it was always going to fucking fail. I understand that. I understand that Carolina can't look at her dad half the time because of what he'd done. I understand that the family I chose was gaslit and abused and used as social experiments for shits, giggles, and the flimsiest excuse for science I've ever heard of.
I understand plenty, Beta.
Do you?