"...why the hell do you think I know how to do that? What, if any, part of my long, tragic, bullshit thing that never was with Carolina makes you think I know how to stop caring? I had to think she was dead to start getting over her." And then, hey, he died and wound up here. Full circle of bullets and bullshit, hurrah. "Trying to not care or feel shit is how the world ended up with Agent Fuck Truck New York in the first goddamn place so it's not something I really recommend."