"I get really tactile after a drift- or when I've been drinking. Or when I'm tired." A beat. "It's kind of amazing that I haven't just draped myself over you like a cat yet but then again the bed is comfy and you're over there."

A few deep swigs and he's finished his coffee, setting the mug aside. "I have screaming nightmares sometimes because of what happens. I still have days where I'm convinced all this is a dream and I'll wake up and things'll be how they're supposed to be. There are days when I wouldn't have gotten out of bed to do anything except I had to spar with you. I'm not sure I"m worth the effort you've been putting into me. And I find you stupidly attractive most of the time but don't know how to talk about it."