He's only vaguely aware of anything going on around him. Hard to pay attention when his mind is unravelling, tearing itself apart, trying to rebuild and restructure around what's being forced into him. The screams are broken with sobs, great gulps of air and tears running down his face. It hurts and he doesn't have time to care. It hurts and he can feel blood trickling down the back of his neck. It hurts and that's all there is and- "I'm sorry i'm sorry i'll be good i'll be better i'll obey please stop."